Come on, really?

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First, AAAARRRRRGGGHHH!!! (that felt good - even though I can't yell out loud right now, somehow pounding the keyboard felt good!)

It's been awhile since my last entry and to be honest, I just haven't felt motivated to do anything.  I have been trying to fight back with this funk I have been in and it's been a challenge to say the least. Still only working part-time and have been looking for full-time, finding it more and more difficult each day to find a job with the flexibilty that my family needs.

Meanwhile, there are bills to pay and mouths to feed....I wish I would just once and for all get this so called life figured out! I have so many things in my head that I want to do, could do, should do, but none of them sticks out more than the other.  Everyone just tells me..."Just pick one thing and do it!" Do you know how completely impossible that is for someone who is going through depression? Someone suffering from anxiety? Ok so now the devil's advocate...."why don't you just get a prescription?" Uh, well because I don't want to become addicted and I hate giving money to those fake killinig pharmaceutical companies! The sad part is...if I can't kick this things butt, I may have to turn to pills! 

Am I the only one that feels like this? I can't be alone in this...I just wish I could find the quick solution so I could get on with my life.  For now, all I can do is write down my feelings and thoughts in hopes that clarity will come my way.

Until the next time....be kind to one another.